Thursday, October 2, 2014

SEXUAL LOVE............. SPIRITUAL LOVE.................. THE EXPANDING OF LOVE BEYOND DESIRE



       I passed through a mystical experience
at 4:30 A.M. today... and it carried me a step towards my goal of unifying the split
in the psyche between the spirit and the flesh.
       Make no mistake, the spiritual and the
erotic both partake of the infinite atoms
and energies of the same universe. There
is nothing, not even E.S.P., not even union
with God, nothing that is not corporeal.
       Atoms and energies take part in both experiences, in fact in all events that happen
through the medium of the human brain...

       So why do we revere the spiritual
and denigrate the physical? (Same old
question on this site.)

        I had a transcendent experience
this morning. I felt Aphrodite smile
within me. I felt Her smile with mercy
within my heart...I felt Her tender
forgiveness.
         What had I been doing before
this? I had been obsessing with
sexual desire focusing on psychological
fetish. I had been focusing for hours
on various aspects of the beauty
of women, the beauty of womanhood,
feeling passion and devotion.
         It was then I felt the transcendent
presence of Aphrodite within me.

         The sense I got was that the energies
of the Father God, God of Abraham, God  who
opens the clouds,Lord of the meeting rivers;
the God of Christ and the prophets...that the chaste communion with the one who is creating us
could meld and merge into the love of Aphrodite - that the two divinities
were one in the same, especially
through the prism and the
mirror of FORGIVENESS.

            I felt this. I sensed this: that the
two energies partake of one divinity -
that He and She are of the Same.
            
            "I am he who is of the Same."
Christ said this in the Gospel of Thomas.
And Christ forgave Mary Magdalene.
She was His beloved companion, so much
so that some of the other disciples were
jealous that He  spent so much time
 with her.  (see The Gospel of Philip)

           Mystical experiences are not
experiences that can be explained 
rationally.
           I attempted to express
the feeling I had in the presence of
Aphrodite with the following poem.
I'm pretty sure the poem needs more
 work, more detail. But so far,
this is the attempt. 
             


ZION DREAM: MAGDALENE AND APHRODITE




ZION DREAM: MAGDALENE AND APHRODITE
       


        I believe in spiritual love


         the love of the one


          whom we keep denying...


           denying the existence


            of the One  we


             embody


                      *


                     

             I believe in sexual love


             the cruelties and the


              mercy of the Goddess


                Aphrodite


                        *


             I am not sure which is higher


             spiritual 


              or sexual love


              and I don’t care which


              is higher


                       *


              She has taken


              every part of me


               cock and balls


               soul and heart


                         *


                 I have given you


                  all my songs


                          *


                  I am left standing


                   on the shore of the beautiful


                   River Lethe


                    watching the shades


                   race past


                         *


                    chasing what?

                    the corruptible?

                    feeding on what's left
                   
                    of the flesh?


                            *


                    I have nothing more to say


                    about higher or


                     lower love…


                    
                     there is divinity


                     at every turn



                               *


                    blindly in the dark


                     I feel my way


                     towards you


                             *


                    feeling towards

                          
                    the inner glow 


                    of your embrace


                             *


                     moving blindly


                     feeling my way


                      in darkness


                              *         


                     guided by the warmth


                      of Your smile


                       within.


                            *


                           *


                           *


                           *


                         


       II                   :                       ll


                             
                    

             thru us

             the mind of the

              creating One

              arises within


                    *             


              as  we learn to laugh

              and dance

              with the stars


                     *


              twirl and dance

              the stars reside

              within us


                    *


              rubies are hanging

              from the trees.


                       *



                                           




                I don't pretend to have all the answers
re: the unifying of sexual communion and spiritual communion.
         There's an expression that T.S.Eliot
wrote down. He wrote these words:

"THE EXPANDING OF LOVE BEYOND DESIRE"
 

        In the growth of men and in unfolding process of realization and awareness we come to know

 what the above words mean. 

        And toward the end of our lives, if mercy is 

shown to us,  we  begin to understand the meaning of forgiveness.

 




                                       With thanks,

                                       (C) 2014 by W.G.Milne

Thursday, September 25, 2014

PAIN IN THE FLESH........ COMPLETION IN THE SPIRIT.....HELL AND HEAVEN?.....TWO REALMS IN ONE WORLD ONLY




PAIN                                    SPIRITUALITY
IN THE FLESH                     IN THE FLESH
PAIN                                     SPIRIT


           There are not two worlds, there is only one.

      So why this dichotomy?

      It's where we place our FOCUS

       Where we focus our desires.

        Total focus on the genital region will
make this all-encompassing energy seem
as if it's a world unto itself. It's a sphere
all right, but it's not a world.
       The energy of the 1st chakra - HUMP!
HUMP! HUMP! Jack off like a monkey
at the zoo. Staring at the crotches of all
who pass...
       It's a transient world, but what isn't
transient?  The roots that clutch, the
hidden caverns of lust under the earth...
Is it a hell?  Not quite and not yet... it
depends on the intensity and the
duration of your focus.
        The problem with desire? Desire
is usually for something outside of
yourself - it's an incompletion.
   
         I WANT MORE

       This could be the motto for the
realms of desire. 




     If you focus on the beginningless
and endless TAO? A completion resides
in this sphere.  If we're looking
for some kind of peace, peace resides
in the realms of completion.

        IT IS ENOUGH

      This could be the motto for the
realms of peace, the higher chakras,
the realm of completion,  the
heavens - the chaste and sacred realms -
the one who is creating us - uses male and
female in one crucible.
         "When you make the two one" a paragraph
in the Gospel of Thomas.

              
                Is desire truly the powerful enemy of the soul?   (see Bhagavad Gita)

         A few more thoughts on:

  THE WHIP   AND THE   CROSS


                          Enjoy.
 

Sunday, September 7, 2014

TOPDOG AND UNDERDOG...WHY IS LIFE UNFAIR? WHY IS THERE PAIN? THE EMPTY VESSEL... THE NATURE OF EVIL...



       One good thing about having a hangover,
it's impossible to take yourself seriously
at such times.

        But...

         I have a sense that something is gaining on me.
It's hard not to take that feeling seriously. The sense
that I'd better start running away fast
or I'll run smack dab into myself... This is not something
I want to do so early this morning.
          I don't want to run into what I'm running
 from, not before coffee.

           I have a new mirror policy. I don't look in the mirror
until it's well after noon. Even then I do it
slowly and carefully. I try to keep my reflection
at a distance. I just give the mirror
quick glances and then I walk away in
the opposite direction. This way I avoid disturbing
thoughts.




             I hear an engine revving in the
bush across from my bedroom window. Across
the dirt road I see blue smoke rising
into the overcast sky.
            I clearly hear the sound of a V8 engine
revving from 7000 to 8000 RPM with the hood
removed... Clearly hear! Clearly I can't anything
else. My desk is reverberating. The fluid
in last night's tea has waves in it.... ripples
going off in all directions!
                    I've got to make coffee! No more talk!
I need stimulants to deal with this
ugly situation.
                    Blind Jimmy and his wrestler friend
Oh no, I see it's the Iceman! He is now out of jail.
His huge arms bulge as he lifts up the nose of the
car about a foot of the ground then drops it
to bounce in the dirt road parking area. The
engine screams as he does this.
               He went to jail (for kidnapping
his own wife and keeping her in
a coat cupboard in the hall). They
were separated at the time. Now
she's rushing to find a lawyer
to get an uncontested divorce.
                 They've found a
   V8 engine...they  slowly
and dangerously inserted it into the carcass
of a TR6. Slowing they are bringing
the sports car back to life
               Proof of life, in this instance,
is this huge cloud of smoke and  howling sounds...
The noise  is shocking in its
intensity and unbelievable decibel level.
             What does he  always do this
when I have a dreadful hangover? I'd
strangle the bastard if I weren't to sick
to move.
             Why is life so unfair?
              
               

               Why is life so unfair?
                    That's a good question to ask.
                     Just don't expect an answer!

                      I have an answer, not 'the' answer, but 'an' answer.
                Buddha says, "Life is pain."
                When life is painful, it seems unfair.

life is pain                   
                   So...why is life pain?
                  The reason life is  pain...
with no pain, maybe we'd all fall asleep.
                      Pain wakes us up.  We pay attention to
pain. We pay attention to what's around us when
we are in pain.  Reality intensifies. Through pain we have awakening.

As Oscar Wild said, after leaving Reading Jail.
Suffering is not something we should avoid. "Suffering is revelation."

                    How's that for an answer?
                    Pretty good, but it's not satisfying
                
                            Pain is not satisfying. But  through
          pain there is awakening. No pain, no 
Awakening.  Awakening gives  life it's meaning.

                    This is one explanation, one answer
to the question: "Why is life so unfair? Why do I have
to feel this pain... all alone... right now... why?
                     This is one answer, one explanation to a question which is rarely answered.
                                
                           *****************





 topdog and underdog 
Fritz Perls 


            Fritz and his working partner, wife,
started GESTALT THERAPY

            A 'gestalt' is basically an environment.
Let's say, a stage... the gestalt, then,
is everything that appears on that stage
at this moment.
             The therapist in the now
sees the neurosis, the
actions taken to avoid contact with
the gestalt, with other people in the
gestalt (on the stage).
               To simplify. gestalt therapy involves
analysis not of the past, but of how a person
relates to his/her environment in the present
moment --- how a person avoids contact...
with the present situation  and the
people involved in  it.
                  This therapy is based in the here
and now, and involves awareness in the here and now... This is why I like it... why I endorse this
therapy.
                I write about sports, about staying
in the now, staying in the zone.
                The zone is the gestalt. 


                    The therapist must know how
to be in the now and be secure enough in his
own being to be able to observe the interactions
of the persons around him.
                    Fritz Perls was one such
talented observer.

                   
                
my situation
 
                     Speaking of myself  --- To simplify things, I seem to move repeatedly between two personae.
(1) the apologetic schoolboy
(2) the ruler of the world.
           The ruler of the world tends to have
grandiose thoughts and make megalomaniac
statements that are hard to bear.
            The problem with what 'the ruler of the world's'
statements is - they are often right, deep and insightful...
but not always.

            The apologetic schoolboy thinks all kinds
of negative thoughts. He says horrible things
to me, the type of thing that, if anybody else
said it, I'd want to attack that person.
            But it's me saying such things to myself, so what
are my options?

                The topdog is Freud's superego
                Fritz Perls "topdog" is not the manic self.
Topdog is your parental statements, the 'SHOULDS"
of society and the SHOULDS of your parents.
             Underdog is your rebellious nature,
refusing to do what the topdog tells him he should do.
Underdog is trying to survive all the   shoulds,
the orders he gets from the societal and parental
voices.
            The underdog often agrees with the
topdog about what 'should' be done. This is why
the underdog feels guilt when what 'should'
be done is not done.
             The point of the therapy is to remove
or ease the neuroses through which
we avoid contact with others and avoid a working
relationship with society.
             I am a bit of a hermit, so I suppose
I could use more therapy.
 
                The underdog does not equal the depressed self.
           **********************



          It's not so serious!

  empty vessel - my creative process


             I'm not a medium, but the "empty vessel"
aspect of my being, which is sometimes the very
core of me... this enables me to
let different elements, feelings, emotions, REALITIES
pass through me.

              The one thing I don't do and can't do and won't do
is judge what is coming to be into reality
through the empty host, through the cage of my ribs.
               So when a song comes - whether tender
or a flaming message to burn down the house - whether a
passionate melody or a song that cooks so hard
that I just gotta dance I simply do not
judge what deserves to come into being.
            As a result, I sometimes see
some truly horrendous entities writhing
on the table in front of me. 
             I have to just let such things
pass into the agony of their own existence.
I do not own such things and I don't attempt
to collect them, for the most part...
                The truly beautiful passages,
I keep. Sometimes I have created them,
and sometimes passages come to me
fully formed.
                Many spiritual passages come to me
fully formed, already created; I know I have
not written them. It's difficult to claim
a copyright on such things, because they are not
mine.
              

               The reason I am saying this -
an unbelievable diversity of passages
will show up in the pages I
publish on the internet.
           I ask you not to judge me because
of this diversity. I have warned you about
what's going on (maybe not enough).
 I use the different sites
when I write, to warn you ahead of what kind
of subject is coming your way -
        -   something that will bore the piss out
of you, or something that is coming
from an ultra-religious bent that is very
extreme at some times.
           Or a passage that is coming from
an extreme sexual mania - something that
is truly offensive to others, in retrospect
           I am an
empty vessel. And this is my integrity.
It's also the reason I REALLY NEED
AN EDITOR!

p.s.:Hypersexuality is one the aspects of mania.
                                      *       *       *



the nature of evil
            After a lot of thought about the
nature of EVIL, and after a large number
of ugly experiences, I have come  to 
this definition.

"EVIL IS THE NEGATION OF WHAT IS"
                           



        When we see things we think of as 'evil'
often these things are twisted or deformed.
Because evil is a mocking of reality.
                 Evil is a secondary force. It does not
create. It mocks. It twists.
                  But it is a secondary force. It is
important to remember this. It does not
create the universe in its beauty. It mocks
reality. It mocks what is.
                "Evil is the negation of what is."
This statement appears to be very simple,
even simplistic. But it covers a lot
of ground.

                  It ties in with Father David Belyea's
statement:
                     THE ONLY SIN IS SELF-DOUBT.

              I don't pretend to know all the permutations
of how these statements interrelate. 

                 The One Who Is Creating all things
creates both darkness and light, rage and hate,
sex, fecundity and the drying of leaves in the
autumn.
                 The Creating One does not mock,
or tell ontological lies           

                                   *                    *                   *











Tuesday, August 26, 2014

THE WAR ON THE FLESH, DUBIOUS AND DERANGED!

THE WAR ON THE FLESH, PURITAN HANGOVER, DUBIOUS AND DERANGED

August 27, 2014
THE WAR ON THE FLESH… remnant of an erroneous ethic.
THE WAR ON DRUGS, THE PURITAN ETHIC
AND THE HIGHEST PER CAPITA JAIL RATE ON THE PLANET
I`ve re-written this article but can`t seem to find
the new and improved version, the coherent one…
The point I was trying to make is that there
is a dangerous hangover from the puritan mindset. Part
of that mindset is an UNCONSCIOUS TENDENCY to debase
all things of the flesh. And this judgemental disdain towards
the flesh has much to do with the uncaring destruction of
the physical world around us.
This unconscious hatred of the flesh is the motivating force
behind many of the idiotic judgements made by shallow Christian
elements.The puritan tradition is carried on thoughtlessly, a prejudice
repeated by rote.
Why is this important? This unconscious moralizing
WAR on the FLESH is the impetus behind a hateful disregard for
our physical environment.
If we pray to the spirit and despise the flesh, this
disdain ends up being applied to our environment, also.
I truly think this is a dangerous situation. I think
this unconscious prejudice might kill us all.
I shudder to think that a mind infused with this
unbalanced dualism – that such a mind might have access
to nuclear weapons – this is no joking matter!
In “THE LAND OF THE FREE” as we refer
to ourselves in Canada, we have the highest per capita
incarceration rate on this planet. And why is this?
It`s because of the high arrest rate caused by the “war
on drugs.”
All of North America has this honour.
We share this highest per capita jail rate with the United States.
WHAT MADNESS IS THIS?
THIS MADNESS DERIVES FROM THE PURITAN ETHIC.
In old time errant Christianity we used to “lift up the spirit” and “debase the flesh”. There are not two worlds: a higher world of the spirit and a lower world of the flesh.
Our magnificent Earth and the Universe we are born
into – it`s one Unity. Spirit cannot exist without the flesh. It`s
obvious: we are part of one fabric of being. It`s ridiculous to demean
one aspect of this fabric and sanctify another aspect.
The thinking goes, “Drugs are evil; they are part of the lesser world – the world of the flesh. And there is a mean-spirited and mostly
unconscious prejudice against the world of the flesh.
There is sickness in this dualistic thinking and the phony morality that derives from it: spirit vs flesh, God vs man.
Morality based on such phony distinctions is erroneous morality.
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Tuesday, June 17, 2014

THE EARLIST GOSPELS - NOT IN THE BIBLE: : "HE WHO DRINKS THE BUBBLING SPRING OF WATERS FROM MY MOUTH, HE SHALL BE AS I AM, AND I SHALL BE HE, AND THE HIDDEN THINGS WILL BE REVEALED TO HIM.


and from the site below

 


THE EARLIEST GOSPELS: "AND HE SHALL BE AS I AM, AND I SHALL BE HE, AND THE HIDDEN THINGS WILL BE REVEALED TO HIM."





                  These are the words of Jesus, the Christ, the
holy or Anointed One.
          The  saying in the title of this article comes from the Gospel of Thomas, which many scholars  have concluded is the Source gospel of the gospels that appear in the Bible.
          The fact that Thomas is older is apparent
as soon as you  first read the gospel for yourself.
There is no finely honed narrative line about the
life of Jesus.
          Not much of a story at all, compared to
the Bible gospels. As Northrop Frye kept
repeating to our seminar group - "The narrative
form is a later literary form."

          In the Gospel of Thomas, Jesus speaks
most of his parables we come to know later in the 
Biblical gospels. But there is almost no
 story-telling narrative
          The narrative line that fills the later gospels,
Matthew, Mark. Luke and John,
 scarcely exists in the source gospels.
         What you have in Thomas is a series of
question and answer sessions, rather like the
sessions we read about in early zen books.
The monk, the seeker asks a question. The 
master makes an answer - but it is never
an intellectual answer.
           The teacher might give you a slap,
 hit you with a stick, or say something that sounds like nonsense at the time...But he's not about
to explain anything to you. He understands
very well that the "truth" can never be
explained: it must be Known ( not thought
about). It must be experienced.
          It is the same situation with Jesus Christ
and his disciples in the Gospel of Thomas.
For example, a disciple asks: "Master, 
where is the kingdom of heaven?"
          And the teacher answers, "If you go to the sky,
the birds will precede you. If you search for heaven 
in the sea, the fish will precede you... ...  
But the kingdom of heaven is within you.
 And the Kingdom  is spread out upon the earth, and men see it not."

          Quick and to the point. It is difficult to
misinterpret many of the statements made in the 
Gospel of Thomas.

           Of course, those  who insist on
pushing forward their own point of view can
misinterpret anything.
          

           The emphasis that the Empire Church
has put on the message of Christ is that Jesus
Christ is SO SPECIAL  none of us can be
like him.
           Well, it is said he was the son of God
and he came from a virgin birth, and he performed miracles, and there was a star in the East. The
same thing was said of Mithra and too many
other god-kings to mention...

             But why is it stressed that the Christ is
so 'special?' For this goes exactly against His
teaching.
              Why? Why did they re-create the attributes
of the Christ so as to make him unattainable in our minds,
unreachable as the basic goal of meditation.
               You can't REALIZE THE CHRIST within you...  If he is made to be  a water-walking, storm-calming,
from -the- dead- raising, demon-expelling heroic
action figure. Like GI Joe. 
               We all know these TV action figures do
impossible feats, which are fun to watch but which
we nevewr try to do ourselves.
                But G.I. Joe is a plastic doll.... a toy that
kids can play with at the kitchen table as mother is
making breakfast...I'm surprised they didn't make
their version of the Christ into a plastic hero doll...
... Oh, no! I forgot... they did!


              What happens if the Christ is made out
to be such a hero? Well... then he can be monopolized
and  sold as you  sell a product. Christ, as he
has come down to us,  He has been packaged,
shelved, and given a brand name -
he has been patented. And you'd better not infringe
the patent!
              
              You see the point?

               Now a certain smallish group of
people have been restricting access to this unique
big time hero doll that no one else can hope to emulate.
 because he is so unique, and also He is the Source of
Truth, which the whole world wishes
to partake of....and if he is so special, so
unique...  ...   ... well, people will pay anything
to get a piece of the action. 
          It becomes a mercenary situation.
          You wish to attain forgiveness. You
must pay for forgiveness... and I could go on
for a long time about the different ramifications
of all the wrongs that have been done.
            OK! OK!  But this kind of belly-aching doesn't
help much. What helps is if someone lays
down how it really works... what is the essence
of what this great healer emerging out of the Essene
community, the Teacher of Righteousness,
what is the essence of what he is saying?

             The essence is this: "When you
realize 'what it is', what I am.  this truth that I embody,
 when you come to Know me, you
will know yourself.  For what I am you shall be,
and the hidden things will be revealed
to you..."
             In other words, there will be nothing
hidden to you.
              
               Another way of putting it is: 

    "I AM AS CLOSE TO YOU AS YOUR VERY BREATH"

      This is the important point. This is the truth that
is told in the earliest gospels...

     'CLEAVE A PIECE OF WOOD, I AM THERE."

     "LIFT UP A STONE AND YOU WILL FIND ME THERE."


       The presence that says these words is not an
action figure.  And He doesn't exist in the past
either. He exists right here and now, and right
beside you - "As close to you as your very breath."

        It is important that in this country we get
these basic facts right... that we get the straight
goods.  We have been told a fairy tale for too
long.
          This is serious business!  This is life or
death... of a person and of a culture. Our person
and our culture.
           We rise or fall as a people in so far
as we attain this basic realization.

            "CLEAVE A PIECE OF WOOD, I AM THERE."

             When you go into the woods with your
close friends and you light a fire and you drink
some wine and you eat whatever mind-rocking
indigenous plants are available, and you look
into the fire....and you clear your mind... this
is the voice that is speaking out of the fire.
             The voice is here and now. God
is within you. Christ is your ultimate nature.
Come to this voice inside yourself... and you
will have found the Key to life eternal.

         
              


           The I AM existing in  

            I AM THAT I AM 

This is the voice that speaks within you.          

The  I AM in: 

            BEFORE ABRAHAM WAS, I AM.

This is the voice that speaks within you.
And if you listen very carefully, and if you
discard all your preconceptions, you will
Realize this voice... And the world will change
for you.

              When we touch the sacred nature
of the holy path of the real God, when we hear
His voice, when we taste him in the smoke
of the peace pipe of your circle, when
the sanctity of the One who is 
creating all things caresses you... you will not
need any other caress, for you realize
that all affection comes from the same Source...

             And I praise thee, O holy One, you
are the source of all our strength.You are
 all our love...I praise thee...
the God of Jacob, the God of Abraham, 
the One who rides the clouds, the One who speaks from
on high, the Lord of the Meeting Rivers, the
Lord of all the countries of the earth, like sands
of the seas, this is the ancient holiness that you
partake of. This is the holiness that is immaculate
and new.
          This is the gift I bring to you.

          "He was nailed to a tree and he became
the fruit of the Knowledge of the Father. The
fruit did not, however, cause destruction
because it was eaten, but to those who ate it,
it gave cause to become glad in the discovery.
and he discovered them in himself, and they
discovered him in themselves."
                                           The Gospel of Truth 
           
          There really was a Teacher of Righteousness
emerging out of the Essene community. The
Essene people were great healers, and this man in particular 
was a great teacher and healer. This
man was crucified  in 65 B.C.

           This is a true, historical figure.

           

           
             Taste the vision of the ancients,
the vision that is holiness, the vision
that manna gives to  wanderers in the desert.
              We are walking in the desert,
even now. For life without the Knowledge
of God is a desert, make no mistake.
               Without this Knowledge
We walk in the valley of death, alone.
We walk in the wilderness, far from our
home.
             Until Vision is awakened
within us... and when vision awakes
within us, we see we are in the holy city
and we have always been in the holy city.

                 
         When things become wrong,
evil, lost... this is when we are living in
ignorance. We have forgotten that the holy
altar  exists. And there are meanings to
be achieved within it, within the circle
of the holy tabernacle of God... 
          Meanings that have been with us
from the beginning.

            This is the Second Coming of Christ,


            "And he shall be as I am, and I shall be he,
an the hidden things will be revealed to him."
                                                      The Gospel of Thomas

            Christ Consciousness is now arising from the miraculous
discovery  at Nag Hammadi, Egypt, in 1945, one year before the
discovery of the Dead Sea Scrolls, but a far more important discovery
than that of the Dead Sea Scrolls. Two thousand years ( 2000 years)
after the so-called death of Christ, the return occurs.
             To my mind, this could never be an accident.


            "Whoever finds the explanation of these
words will not taste death"
                                           The Gospel of Thomas.
                                           
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